Chaos, cruelty...
Sep. 12th, 2006 10:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
primus_seeressAuspex is seated in her personal living space, adding an entry in her datapad. There is a new addition to the various oddities collected on her table (datapads with old religious texts, the occasional artifact or three, a small, unfinished mosaic with the appropriate metal tiles collected in a nearby container, random tech, tools, and other less-identifiable things here and there, all of it managing to remain semi-orderly): it is a very small plaque, of Earthen wood, an equally Earthen dove carved into the surface: a gift from Cureall. She'd decided the symbolism of the plaque would be considerably more confusing to those with no Earth experience, if displayed in the sanctuary, than the statue Thrust had given the temple earlier, so she'd put it in her personal space, where she could see it.
Usually, she would be in the hall proper, to welcome visitors, but this entry is not something she wants just anybody to see: it could be potentially alarming to certain parties:
Of all the creatures and entities I never wanted to see in the Nexus -- didn't even imagine I could see in the Nexus -- this was the worst-case scenario. I saw, and spoke to, the Chaos Bringer himself.
It actually could have been much worse than it was. Of course, Primus was with me, and I did not allow myself to speak in my own power; that would have been disastrous. But first, I was verbally abused by an apparent Chaos-god from another universe. That was quite... odd. I wasn't quite sure how to answer her; I know the truths of my native place, but this creature seemed unable to accept the nature of the multiverse. But her insistence caught the attention of Unicron...
Usually, she would be in the hall proper, to welcome visitors, but this entry is not something she wants just anybody to see: it could be potentially alarming to certain parties:
Of all the creatures and entities I never wanted to see in the Nexus -- didn't even imagine I could see in the Nexus -- this was the worst-case scenario. I saw, and spoke to, the Chaos Bringer himself.
It actually could have been much worse than it was. Of course, Primus was with me, and I did not allow myself to speak in my own power; that would have been disastrous. But first, I was verbally abused by an apparent Chaos-god from another universe. That was quite... odd. I wasn't quite sure how to answer her; I know the truths of my native place, but this creature seemed unable to accept the nature of the multiverse. But her insistence caught the attention of Unicron...
He insulted me, and my god, but that was to be expected. I thank Primus that he was in control of my words; Unicron's remarks were intended to strike at one's pride, but who am I compared to the power of Primus? I am humbled in his presence, and so I let him speak through me. But then the Devourer spoke badly of one of my charges and friends. Thrust, through a sense of self-incrimination, has been afraid to speak to Primus, but he finally made a breakthrough when he allowed me to relay Primus's thoughts and presence to him, through my own consciousness. I saw how uplifted he was afterwards, and it brought my spark joy to see that fear even slightly eased. Unicron claimed that he knows Thrust's nature better than I, and that he sees what will happen in the future. Cruel being that he is, he mentioned the history of my own universe, and the implications those same events would have on the universe Thrust currently occupies.
I am almost sure that Thrust's mate's other mate (bonded? I do not know...) is Starscream. Starscream, who in my world, made a fatal mis-step, and was subsequently vaporized by Galvatron, only to return as a free-spark, and attempt a bargain with Unicron that nearly cost Cybertron's existence... so similar to what Thrust did in his own universe.
Thrust holds much esteem for Dreadmoon. He does not trust him fully, but he is learning, and I believe he may learn to love his mate, perhaps enough to bond with him, someday. I wish that for him: it would do much to strengthen his spark against the fear that plagues him. But if Dreadmoon loves Starscream, and has bonded with him, such a brutal end for his mate would certainly be devastating and painful for him, and I hesitate to think how Thrust would be affected if his mate sank into despair, especially if he was bonded to him, and thus shared part of one with Starscream as well. To compound it, I have since learned that Dreadmoon is tied to his city of Kalis, controls it, feels what it feels, sees what it sees. I am not sure if that city is in the area of the planet that Unicron crushed, but if so.... *Auspex shudders a little* It is not something I can fully comprehend, but probably, losing one of his mates, and his city, Dreadmoon would go mad, or at least sustain a serious injury to his spark. I don't know if Thrust would be strong enough himself to support the other: Dreadmoon may cause both of them to be lost to hopelessness. Oh, cruel Chaos Bringer...! I pray earnestly that my past will not be their future, and if it must be, that Thrust would remain strong in Primus's light, Dreadmoon may find it, and that I may be there to aid them, should the worst happen. Please, my lord, let that be enough.
On a slightly more cheerful note, Perceptor has made progress, and only a little of it was my doing, which I find encouraging; Cureall has done much to heal him on her own. His tale is very strange, but he seems to have 'adopted' her as a 'daughter', to help ease the pain of losing his two daughters. He came to the Nexus to apologize to me for leaving me in the woods*, and for his distressing words. I was relieved that he had told Cureall about his ordeal, and that he'd had the opportunity to mourn for a little while. I then told him of what I'd discovered -- that he is physically missing fragments of his spark, having given them to his daughters -- and this lifted his spirits considerably, although I don't quite understand why he feels he had abandoned them, in the first place, and why having a part of him with them makes it better. They still don't have him... perhaps the symbolism appeals to him.
I must pray again; I am anxious...
*This actually takes place after this entry, but there is some heavy "Time Has No Meaning Yay" going on here, so it's out of order - my apologies for Nexus time warps. :p
((originally dated 2006-10-05 22:21:00))I am almost sure that Thrust's mate's other mate (bonded? I do not know...) is Starscream. Starscream, who in my world, made a fatal mis-step, and was subsequently vaporized by Galvatron, only to return as a free-spark, and attempt a bargain with Unicron that nearly cost Cybertron's existence... so similar to what Thrust did in his own universe.
Thrust holds much esteem for Dreadmoon. He does not trust him fully, but he is learning, and I believe he may learn to love his mate, perhaps enough to bond with him, someday. I wish that for him: it would do much to strengthen his spark against the fear that plagues him. But if Dreadmoon loves Starscream, and has bonded with him, such a brutal end for his mate would certainly be devastating and painful for him, and I hesitate to think how Thrust would be affected if his mate sank into despair, especially if he was bonded to him, and thus shared part of one with Starscream as well. To compound it, I have since learned that Dreadmoon is tied to his city of Kalis, controls it, feels what it feels, sees what it sees. I am not sure if that city is in the area of the planet that Unicron crushed, but if so.... *Auspex shudders a little* It is not something I can fully comprehend, but probably, losing one of his mates, and his city, Dreadmoon would go mad, or at least sustain a serious injury to his spark. I don't know if Thrust would be strong enough himself to support the other: Dreadmoon may cause both of them to be lost to hopelessness. Oh, cruel Chaos Bringer...! I pray earnestly that my past will not be their future, and if it must be, that Thrust would remain strong in Primus's light, Dreadmoon may find it, and that I may be there to aid them, should the worst happen. Please, my lord, let that be enough.
On a slightly more cheerful note, Perceptor has made progress, and only a little of it was my doing, which I find encouraging; Cureall has done much to heal him on her own. His tale is very strange, but he seems to have 'adopted' her as a 'daughter', to help ease the pain of losing his two daughters. He came to the Nexus to apologize to me for leaving me in the woods*, and for his distressing words. I was relieved that he had told Cureall about his ordeal, and that he'd had the opportunity to mourn for a little while. I then told him of what I'd discovered -- that he is physically missing fragments of his spark, having given them to his daughters -- and this lifted his spirits considerably, although I don't quite understand why he feels he had abandoned them, in the first place, and why having a part of him with them makes it better. They still don't have him... perhaps the symbolism appeals to him.
I must pray again; I am anxious...
*This actually takes place after this entry, but there is some heavy "Time Has No Meaning Yay" going on here, so it's out of order - my apologies for Nexus time warps. :p
