I am in contact with Primus, and he can see through the layers you've wrapped around your thoughts, to hide them fom Void, and even from yourself. You cannot see your own emotions objectively, with so much self-deception obscuring the terror of what you've been through. So Primus looks through the obscurity, and helps me to carefully remove the layers, and find the truth, and show you it is not as bad as you recall. This is pain you hid from Void, and you have never had the opportunity to see it for what it is.