*She ponders that for a moment* It depends on what impression you've tried to give him, and whether he believes it. You said you pushed him away, and that probably hurts enough as it is; I don't think it would be any worse if you were to leave, with the promise of coming back soon. You really should tell him why you've shut him out, if you haven't. Does he know that you fear what he will find if he remains close?