primus_seeress | More News of Teletraan; Thrust Worries

*Auspex nods thoughtfully, though she chuckles a bit* You sound like a merchant.

Windtunnel's creation, remember? If I'm sounding like a merchant it's probably a good thing." And Thrust winks ever so slightly, folding his arms again.

"Besides letting yourself be influenced by Autobots, what have you been up to?"

*Auspex simply shakes her head - mostly in amusement, though it is accompanied by a slight wince - at the mention of Windtunnel* I suppose he would be pleased, then. *Her tone is rather ambiguous*

*The wince grows more pronounced, rather on the pained side* Please, you speak rashly; you really have no idea why they were here. Faction has little to do with it.

"I meant it as a classifying term, not as a derogatory one. I know many pleasant and intelligent Autobots." Thrust snaps his mask off, displaying his thin, small mouth turned up in a grin. See, he shows his real face, he has nothing to hide.

*She nods once as he clarifies* Very well, though I find the distinction unecessary; I find it more of note that they are dead.

*she blinks at him in startlement and more than a little confusion as he removes the mask; she vaguely senses the point he's trying to make, but really, it has the opposite effect; sincerity is gone, he is attempting to ingratiate himself to her and her god, he is trying too hard to regain what he hasn't even lost. She shakes her head again, sadly*

Did I not say, that I trust you, in spite of the fact that you are not trustworthy? I trust you less, when you attempt to make yourself into more than what you are. I have no doubt you've used that gesture before to win trust, whether or not it was deserved. That means nothing to Primus; there is nothing you can hide from him. I might find the show of faith more reassuring, if not for the reasoning I see behind the action.

*Thrust seems startled for a moment, his confusion all the more obvious for how open he's left himself. He hadn't expected this level of...well, insight from someone unused to intrigue*

You have...a great point there, yes. *tone goes into grovelling mode* But you know I would never wish harm upon you. If I do this, I do it to make you more comfortable. I thought you wanted me to be open.

*she sees his surprise, and resists a weary sigh* I have counseled others with a mindset such as yours; that, and a great deal of Primus' insight to your nature, bring me this perspective. Perhaps he seeks to remind you how much he does know about his children, and what I can see of what he tells me.

*she almost winces at his supplicating tone, but attempts to overlook it for the moment* I am not questioning your trustworthiness. I know what it is, and what it is not, regardless of what you outwardly present, and I thank you for being as honest with me as you have been. I do appreciate openness, that you truly represent what I can already sense. Masks are not of consequence, unless you feel that you hide your nature behind it, as well as your face.

*raises his hand and snaps his mask back on again--he's obviously more comfortable with his face covered* *shoulders slump ever so slightly in weariness and irritation* I do wish Primus would be a bit less vague in this sort of thing. I work for myself and I am rewarded, I take unnecessary pains to protect you and you shoot me down.

*While his aspect is rather conflicted, somewhere between honesty and exaggeration, she does recognize genuine discouragement in there somewhere, and she regrets it; he still doesn't understand. She hesitates for a moment, but decides to ignore the risk of offending him, and takes his hand and pats it lightly in apology, somewhat contrite, if also faintly exasperated*

No, I am honored to have a friend that cares to watch for my safety... even if, perhaps, you do so more for your own benefit, than mine. I admit I felt more secure for your presence there, when my sanctuary's attacker came to the Nexus; I thank you for that, and for every other time you've been there when I've had to take frightening risks, such as after my encounter with Megatron under Unicron's control. But... there are also times when I know I am safe.

*Thrust practically beams when she compliments him on making her feel more secure. But her other comment makes his optics narrow in discontent* Your temple has been attacked at least once, priestess. Shouldn't you be taking better care?

*she shakes her head patiently, keeping hold of his hand to convey to him that she is indeed listening, and not taking his words lightly* What I am trying to explain, is that it is not an assumption, it is an assurance. Only when a force outside of Primus' children, or the Allspark, is involved, am I dealing with an unknown.

I inquired of Primus, and he assured me of Ratchet and Ironhide's intentions. That was enough to put my concerns to rest. Even the Cybertronians that frighten me, can do me no harm, unless Primus allows, though at times he will. I fear, when Primus tells me beforehand that injury is a possibility, because I wish to avoid pain as much as anyone, but he will tell me, first. And I cannot, and will not, refuse him, when he directs me to speak with someone, even if I will be harmed.

I... don't see how I can stay as safe as you might wish, if Primus calls me to speak with someone dangerous. In a case such as that, you attempt to defy Primus, by keeping me away. There are times when I will not be safe, but I cannot avoid them.

*nods, ever so slowly* If you are very sure? There are tricks, you might not know they were anything out of the ordinary until it was far too late.

*her brow furrows, as she tries to identify what exactly he's thinking of* Do you have any theoreticals, perhaps? I'm not sure how that could be done.

A servant of Unicron or another dark force blinds your empathy, making you think they are neutral when they are malevolent.

*she frowns, optics flickering slightly* But the power of Unicron causes me pain... if they have found a way to mask that... then caution would be useless, anyway.

*She struggles to think of a situation that would match his scenario, some sort of wild theoretical that could possibly fit - but then, it is the Nexus involved, it probably exists, somewhere. The odds of it showing up in the Nexus, however, are not great*

The most dangerous, for me, would be someone such as Void, who is given over to Chaos, but still possesses a spark of Primus. On the other hand, I'm sure I would react as I would to any other servant of Unicron... surely I would not be able to sense Primus' spark in amongst all the Chaos. I couldn't see Jetstorm's spark, or his brothers', until the Chaos was gone. After that, they were as normal to my senses as any other Cybertronian. *she specifically emphasizes this final point*

*Thrust tilts his head slightly, resisting the urge to talk down to her as he would an inferior officer* Auspex, exactly how many brushes did you have with the forces of Chaos before coming to the Nexus? You have no idea what they are capable of.

*Auspex lets go of his hand, looking away a bit, as she makes a face* A few, when I was still at one of the larger city temples... though I concede that those Chaos-followers had very little power, themselves.

But, I know what my god is capable of, and he, in turn, knows the sorts of things Unicron is capable of. That does not mean I cannot make mistakes, and I do see why you are concerned; but what do you suggest I do? What exactly does "being careful" entail, and when does it start becoming paranoia? And why do you wish to apply it to someone just as capable, and just as unlikely, to do me harm, as you are?

*Thrust remains silent and mulls over this. He's not sure how to counter her point, not when she has Primus to play as her trump card. He sighs dramatically and lets his shoulders slump* Yes, Auspex.

*softly* Those are not rhetorical questions... I do want your opinion, if you feel so strongly about it. *she recognizes the exaggeration in his reaction, but she still finds it disconcerting*

I'm not really sure how to answer them, is the problem. I would love to have some way of ensuring both your safety and your freedom, but I cannot be everywhere and you insist on taking these risks... *he's got his head down now, looking ashamed of himself and feeling it as well*

*She frowns, somewhat nonplussed herself, for causing that emotion* Please don't feel that way; you are not responsible for my safety. I am still somewhat baffled by the jealousy you seemed to feel for my other visitors, and I'm not quite sure if that is truly related to this... but as far as dangers outside of Primus' reach are concerned, I would rather not put you, or anyone else, in reach of Chaos, either.

After what Sideways did to my visitor... *she shakes her head vehemently* I do not want a repeat of that. True, he seems to use powers that those of Unicron typically do not have... but no. Servants of Chaos have done enough to you already. I don't want to see you in spiritual or psychological danger, any more than you'd put me in a war zone.

*lifts his hands helplessly* Then what am I to do? You expose yourself to these lies and to this danger and you won't even carry a weapon to defend yourself with? Auspex, I need you. I won't allow you to hurt yourself.

*Her optics flicker, and she sighs at him. She was afraid he would say something to that effect. He is, consciously or not, trying to influence her emotions, and he does it too well. She shakes her head slowly* Thrust... I am only a servant of Primus. There is very little I can do for you that Primus can't, directly, if you trust him. I do not worry about what will happen to me, because I am in the hands of my god, and I trust him to keep me safe and alive, to serve him.

Also remember, that it is not my calling to seek out those of Unicron; it is my calling to counsel and heal my own people. If they are attacked by Chaos, I wish to protect them, yes, but there are others who are called to take the offensive against such beings. I am one that goes behind, and mends the destruction. I will happily keep myself far away from anyone Chaotic, as long as they leave my people alone.

*relieved* Good. Good. As long as you're taking care not to rush into these things and letting others fight where you cannot, I can gain some measure of peace.

That was never my intent, no. I am spiritually well-defended against those who serve Chaos, but confronting them is not my goal. As long as they don't actively attack me or my lord's children, I will leave them be.

But, I cannot afford to be overly suspicious of Primus' children, when I am called to serve them; that would hinder my purpose. Can you trust me, in that? Or at least voice your concern about someone's intentions to me, rather than drive them away?

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