Scourge Arrives

[primus_seeress]

*Auspex is wandering in the wildernesses around her sanctuary. There are times she simply needs to see the sky and stars, and seek Primus in the landscape of her homeworld. She drifts over the plains, utilizing her seldom-used hover vehicle mode. She finds a peculiar outcropping of metal, transforms, and climbs up a little higher, to perch on it, and survey the scenery.*

*She has a suspicion Primus has a purpose for her being here... but doesn't he always? She murmurs a prayer as she watches the serene landscape.*

((originally dated 2006-10-14 23:23:00))

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[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

*smiles in a less bitter fashion, looking almost dreamily at the sky* You have no idea. He's power incarnate, he's everything a Decepticon aspires to be but can never been. *he's charismatic as hell, insanity aside* Void knew what he was doing when he murdered our Galvatron. Cyclonus is smart but he just doesn't have the same power to command an army.

I was terrified and he just knelt on the floor and took my hands...I couldn't stop looking at him. He made me feel stronger just by meeting my gaze.

[primus_seeress]

*she nods thoughtfully* He bolstered your self-worth, by showing you that your presence in the universe matters to him, and the things that are so inspiring about him gave you hope. I think you have more opportunity for hope, now that Void is gone... it's the self-worth you need to strengthen.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

I can hope. Without Void, things can only get better. *he looks down again* But it doesn't change the fact that I could barely lift my gun during our final battle against him. I hid.

[primus_seeress]

*She glances at him sympathetically* Do you have any ideas about why you reacted that way?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Too scared. *his fingers fidget about each other* Not used to raising my hand against anyone on Void's side.

[primus_seeress]

Were you afraid Void would try to capture you again, or do his people themselves inspire fear?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

The latter. I wasn't going to let Void take me alive, not again.

[primus_seeress]

*she nods in understanding. His mind probably could not have withstood a third capture, anyway. She winces at the thought.* His people were loyal to him, then? Were they cruel to you, also?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Jetstorm did whatever Void said. The others didn't care very much, about me or about Void.

[primus_seeress]

What makes them frightening to you, then? *seeking information, not chiding*

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

They belong to Void. They're his hands and feet, his guns and shield.

[primus_seeress]

*she nods* They don't care for him, but they follow him? Are they frightened of him as well? Do you have any bad memories of them?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

They aren't frightened. The Stunticronians weren't cruel all that often, but Jetstorm was his foremost torturer. And he was good.

[primus_seeress]

*Her optics flicker briefly* He... has his own issues, but he is recovering. I imagine, though, at the time, he was quite fearsome. Did Void inflict pain on you himself, or Jetstorm, or both?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Both. Can we not talk about this?

[primus_seeress]

*She nods again, speaking gently* All right. It cannot, and does not all need to be addressed at once. Something slightly less traumatic, then?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Not much about it all that wasn't traumatic. It's been...

*he pauses* Most of my life, really. A day before Void, a week and a half before being captured, and a month since he was defeated. Most of my life.

[primus_seeress]

*she sighs* I see... it makes it harder for you to think differently, if you've endured this for so much of your life. But it is not impossible.

How are you getting along with the other Decepticons, now?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

I try to stay out of their way. I don't like the looks they give me.

[primus_seeress]

They don't trust you? Or they disapprove of your outlook? *She murmurs softly, almost to herself* Either way, it can't be helping your self-image...

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

They think I'm a coward. Half of them don't trust me and the rest think I'm pathetic.

[primus_seeress]

*she shakes her head* There are times when the Decepticon culture can be very unhealthy... what does Cyclonus think?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

He hasn't said, but I know he's thinking the same thing. That I'm weak.

[primus_seeress]

*she looks at him critically* I can believe he may be disappointed in you, but perhaps not to the extent you imagine. Decepticon culture is one thing, but having a triad-mate is another. They tend to be close, whichever the faction.

That is why you wander alone? To avoid the others?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I don't want anyone looking at me, least of all him. Cyc keeps a lot of things bottled up, but I can tell. He hated me at one point, when he though I'd defected on my own.