Scourge Arrives

[primus_seeress]

*Auspex is wandering in the wildernesses around her sanctuary. There are times she simply needs to see the sky and stars, and seek Primus in the landscape of her homeworld. She drifts over the plains, utilizing her seldom-used hover vehicle mode. She finds a peculiar outcropping of metal, transforms, and climbs up a little higher, to perch on it, and survey the scenery.*

*She has a suspicion Primus has a purpose for her being here... but doesn't he always? She murmurs a prayer as she watches the serene landscape.*

((originally dated 2006-10-14 23:23:00))

Comments

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

Right, try telling the rest of the Decepticons that. Slag, tell the Autobots that, they expect me to just shake it off because I'm a Decepticons and everyone knows Decepticons don't feel pain. *throws his arms up in exasperation* Cyclonus tried to help and I pushed him away. No one else cares. I'm on my own with this and if I can't hold my own I'm as good as a maintanence drone.

[primus_seeress]

Then do not push him away! Can you not allow him to help you in some small way, at least..? And Primus cares; as his servant, I care, and I'm sure Dreadboots cares. You can't refute everyone's intentions to help. You do not have to be on your own.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

If I can't make it on my own, what good am I? I told you, I couldn't handle it. Now he thinks I want to be alone.

[primus_seeress]

No one can handle life completely on their own. We weren't made to. Not even Decepticons.

*She puts her chin in her hand, silent a moment* I'm starting to think that you should just... take temporary leave of your people, if you can, and find a healthier environment to rest in.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

And go where? Just stay out here in the middle of all this scrap?

[primus_seeress]

No... *she shrugs* If it were my right to recommend it, I would suggest visiting the people you met in the other universe. But, you may also stay in the sanctuary I am keeper of, if you'd like. Other than my own living quarters, I have a few furnished rooms for the occasional refugees; they have not been used in a long while, but I do maintain them.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

*mulls this over for a bit, taking his hand back* Staying here with you? No catch, you get nothing out of it?

[primus_seeress]

*She smiles slightly, shaking her head* The gladness of my god and the beginnings of a healing spark are all the payment I require; and I would be on-hand, whenever you need a listening audio.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

*considers a bit more* Maybe just for a little while, until I get my head together.

[primus_seeress]

*she nods* You are only becoming more self-degrading among your people; you need time away from them, at least. Your dilemma with Cyclonus is not as easily solved, but whether you are actually with him in person or not, you still need time to sort out your fears, and allow your spark to begin mending; perhaps you can re-learn how to be more open with him.

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

You think he'd understand why I was doing this? Don't want to piss him off even more.

[primus_seeress]

*She ponders that for a moment* It depends on what impression you've tried to give him, and whether he believes it. You said you pushed him away, and that probably hurts enough as it is; I don't think it would be any worse if you were to leave, with the promise of coming back soon. You really should tell him why you've shut him out, if you haven't. Does he know that you fear what he will find if he remains close?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

If I tell him, he'll never touch me again; I'll be lucky if he doesn't send me to some far-out outpost. *he's infected, tainted down to his spark with chaos and Cyclonus is the last person in this universe who'd want to be near someone like that* Trust me, some things are better left unsaid. If he doesn't think I'm a coward anymore, that's good enough.

[primus_seeress]

*she blinks* Even if he knew you would heal? You can recover from this, given time!

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

I'd like to hope so. Lemme comm him and tell him where I am at least.

//Cyc? Um...are you going to need me for anything for a while? I was thinking of just staying out here for a while, just to think on some things.// *wow, that came out stupid*

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

//Scourge. I'd been wondering where you went.// *and that might be a touch of relief in his voice* //I'll comm you if you need anything, but I doubt there will be any important work in the near future. Stay where you wish.//

*the unspoken ending to that sentence is 'and take care of yourself'*

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

//Right.// *They exchange a few bits of coordinate data before Scourge cuts the connection.* Well, he didn't seem too upset.

[primus_seeress]

*She nods thoughtfully, mildly surprised that it was settled after so short an exchange* Would you like to see the temple, or stay here, if you have more you wish to discuss?

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

*it took a bit longer, but most of it wasn't spoken* I think I'd just like to go there.

[primus_seeress]

*She nods* Follow me, then. *she stands, stepping clear of the metallic outcroppings, transforming to her hover-flit mode, drifting away slightly, waiting for him to follow*

((I guess since she flew her way out here, it's a somewhat long walk))

[corruptedhope.livejournal.com]

*Scourge follows on foot, picking his way through the wreckage instead of taking to the air. And when he finally does recharge, he sleeps deeper than he has in a year.*